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[20 Jan 2005|04:09pm]
[ mood | idunno ]

wowza. havent updated in a long ass time.

ive been so busy lately, getting a job, driving around cause i have my license now (its been like 2 months). lots of school work, hanging out with my boy and his friends and just having a good time.

how is everyone doing? i would love to hear from a bunch of you. i still have the same screen name, i just rarely go online cause AIM=drama.

i am in love with my boyfriend, hes awesome. thats really all thats new with me. and uh thats my story.

leave me some comments. i might start updating more often :)

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[29 Nov 2004|12:20pm]
i love elliott soomre
he is the best boyfriend
hes hot
and i love him

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[25 Aug 2004|06:04pm]
[ mood | bored/bored/bored ]

look at this beautiful birthday card i made for a lovely girl i call Bho :) her b-day is tomorrow..Collapse )

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[12 Aug 2004|11:15am]

this is why i love my bho<333 shes awesome.

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[10 Aug 2004|10:45pm]
[ mood | bored/confused ]

tonight was interesting to say the least. i hung out with em, we ate, went to the mall, and then we came home, and went to laurens and chilled with some people. it was fun but interesting too. yeah..heres some pics.



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im comfortably confused [09 Aug 2004|03:47pm]
[ mood | sad/confused/stressed ]

so here are some pics from NH, a few i just took, and a few other random ones. the ones from NH are kinda bad quality as well as the random ones because they were from regular pictures so i took a picture of the picture lol. so yeah, sorry about that. but enjoy <3



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[05 Aug 2004|01:16pm]
[ mood | happy/amused ]

question of the day from Bho and Myself:

would you do ashlee simpson?

so far here are the results:

dvS pUNk3: umm yea
Freddo Goatpants: would I ever....
emoashes85: i guess
Krux Down Lo: no way
RUIN PREP: never
Yourmyboyblue968: nope
BFtail22: nah probably not
kwin1331: ehh prob
SillyLectures: shes the future mother of my children
UkNoWmeDa ArollA: yea...i hate her but id do her
x censure: yes in a hearbeat
marry me Lazzara: hey! i wouldnt do ashlee simpson shes ugly as a mofo and she tries to hard to be "rock" when she sounds just like every other pop singer around here
ITZdaFiNnDoGg: of course
Bdhockey4: prolly she's fuckin dumb tho
Bulldog8912: to be honest, i dont even know what she looks like
Joefoe04: of course...so hard!
speakfree03: in a fuckin second!
rowlesy4487: yes i would thank u
abloodyvioletxx: in response to your lj, NO i would never do ashlee simpson because 1. i am a girl and 2. i dont want herpes

if you would like to partcipate IM either myself , xokissmyfist, or bho , xOsXy ShO rTyOx...THANKS DUDES

[29 Jul 2004|11:57am]
[ mood | happy/hopeful ]

so yeah. yesterday was a pretty good day. i woke up at like 10:45 and then called someone at 11, but hmm the phone kept ringing, and i did this a good 4 times CAUSE I KNEW something was wrong, but whatever. so then kimmy came over, and we were bored so our friends shawn and kenny ended up coming over. it was cool. we watched a few movies, played music, played guitar, kenny ate like all my tootsie pops! haha and yeah. ate alot.

so yeah, they left around like 8:45ish and then me and kimmy decided to go to DQ and get ice cream. when we drove up, this kid was standing at the window ordering, and like, staring at me, and i was like HMM INTERESTING, and when we got out of the car he continued to stare at us and we were like YEAH OK WEIRDO ahha, so we got ice cream, went home, ate it, and then someone called me and we talked like we always do, for a few hours. he talked to kim at one point and gave her advice and it was really cute <3 so we got off the phone with him at like 2, even tho i thought i was going to head into bed at 12 haha, whatever.

so yeah, that was my night. yup!

TO HELL WITH YOU [20 Jul 2004|04:39pm]
[ mood | lmao hahahah ]

you gotta love those myspace guys who leave you the most random/creepiest e-mails..well...EVER haha:
Date: Jul 20, 2004 10:37 AM
Subject: Funny, confident, secure & sexy...
Body: Hi Julie. Something tells me you are probably getting a lot of e-mails that go something like "Hi, I'm freshly divorced from my 7th wife, have five delinquent kids but the good news is that I finally have a chance at getting a job as soon as I get out of jail..." etc. and all the same old boring stuff and typical lines from loser desperate guys.

Then again, you could secretly be a 50 year old gay man putting pics of girls online fresh out of jail with his pants down to his ankles overjoyed to be getting an e-mail from a sexy guy like me...

You are younger then who I usually talk to, but I suppose I'll consider giving you a chance to make friends me...(-;

In any event, I have my life together and I'm more then the usual amount of interesting and funny, so you'd better like to laugh.

If you sound as interesting as your profile in your response, I might write back. You sound like you might make an interesting friend, so I might be inclined to invite you to join me for a cup of tea or coffee at Panera Bread, a coffee house in Shrewsbury if I decide to get to know you better. If I decide to meet you and you show up as some psycho I can make up some excuse for why I have to leave like I have to go floss my cat or that I have to go comb my camel. (-;

I play drums in a band so come to a show sometime. It will be a great time. Our web site is www.backwoodsmusic.com. Just no stalking behavior or I may have to call my Internet security guards. (-;

-James Bond

just wow....im laughing so hard. guys these days. this isnt the first CREEPY one ive gotten.

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tra la laaaaaaa [18 Jul 2004|06:30pm]
[ mood | content ]

los fotos de Maine :)Collapse )

[18 Jul 2004|11:56am]
yay..i got the pics from Maine on the computer now, but i will def. post them later because i have to go out for a lil while!

<333 love

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"ill cut your throat!"-ha em [17 Jul 2004|08:18pm]
[ mood | uhh your mom? :) ]

the last entry was just a quick lil "i just got home and am too tired to write about maine" entry, so here is my actual entry about maine!

okay sooo, the first day we got there, we rode the ferry to the island, and it was really nice out. we got to the house and unpacked and stuff, and then went on like a tour of the island and to the store and stuff. when we were walking me and em spotted a dude, and oh boy was he fine hahah only us em. so then all i remember (cause that was a week ago) is we got food, and then i think watched Fight Club and another movie. then we headed to bed.

the next day we woke up and went to the beach and stuff, and it was okay, me and em went for a romantic lil walk down to the rocks and stuff haha, and yeah, thats cool. then lets guess we went home and watched YET another fucking movie.

hmm everyday was basically the same, one day emily, myself, emilys brother, and his brothers gf took a lil adventure. there is this old abandonded WWII thing on this island, and it was like a fort where people were kept hostage and stuff, and it was just hella creepy. so went in there and walked around and her brother played a trick on us and pretended the flast light went out, now this place is PITCH BLACK there are no lights, so me and em and her brothers gf were like screaming and i almost cried because i was so scared haha, so then we drove around the woods on trails and it was wicked creepy cause we came across all these like old creepy houses and random like junk yards.

one of the nights me and emily had a good discussion about people and how horrible they treat people sometimes, how they walk all over people, use them, etc. we seriously talked for over an hour about it, and it was just really good to get alot of feelings off my chest and out into the open since i couldnt talk to the person about it. i also talked to someone one of the nights, they called me and it was just awesome to talk them, i really fucking miss this person, they make me feel like..good about myself, i duno, but you know who you are <33 and i thank you..muchos!

hmmm one of the days, i believe it was thursday me and emily went into Old Port by ourselves and went shopping a bit and it was cool. we walked by the "stoop" mutiple times, haha no one knows/will know what that is!

last night..me and emily took advantage of hte nice weather and we took a long walk, and went down to the coast of the island and walked on the beach while the sun set, and wow, it was amazing, i love the beach its so beautiful. i was just sitting there thinking about so many things, and like i felt so happy, no idea why, but it was awesome. then we wlaked by our neighbors house aka the hot boys...and him and his friends were like playing guitar on the porch(oh baby) and the hot boy started like walking towards the edge of the porch and he loked like he was going to talk to us but we just smiled haha and walked by! DAMMIT em we shoulda fucking like walked up and said helllllllo...:slaps myself in the face:

maine was fun, it was great to get away from everything, but i also really realized how much i missed a bunch of people after not talking to them for a week or so and stuff, yeah, it was an awesome time tho, i would do it again in a fucking heartbeat <333

PS-i forgot to add in that these creepy spanish men started hitting on me and em and saying all these creepy/dirty/fucked up things and we like pissed ourselves...ALSO these two random guys came up to us in the middle of Old Port and were talking abotu there friend Danny and how he needs a girl and they showed us a video of this kid danny and it was hella funny..

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though i love you... [04 Jul 2004|09:57am]
[ mood | happy/amused ]

uh hmm..

yesterday i sat out by the pool all day and shizat, it was cool. and i pestered my brother...but that comes almost everyday
--i miss Emily :( shes at the cape...i basically hang out wiht her everyday so im sad haha...pathetic i know
--Ben is sick and in the hospital :( and he needs to get all better real soon!
--everyone is gone on fucking vacation, hillary, joce, becky, emily, steph, meg, and so many others :( not cool at all!
--BHO is my love and life haha. she is the shit, i love her

and umm..i think thats basically all i wanted to say? i duno..

oh and i want to see the Little Rascals, so someone make a date with me and bring that movie cause i love that movie!
"i love pickles"
"my dad gives them to me but i dont really like them"
"hey, ill give you a nickle for your pickle"
"how about two cents?"
"ok" (gets pickle)" i got two pickles!"-starts singing a song


ohhhhh and...yesterday i was walking down my stairs and theres a wall at the end of my stairs..and i fell down like two stairs, fell on my ass, and put a huge hole in the wall with my foot...yes swift i know. thought you all might have wanted to know that! now that im embarassed, im going to leave now haha <33

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[27 Jun 2004|01:17pm]
[ mood | bored/happy ]

soo uhhhh

what have i been up to this week you may be wondering? oh one word....DANCE.

i have my last dance recital tonight, i had one friday night too, so this should be fun, im looking forward to it.
hmm tonight is hillary's birthday and i love herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr shes turning the big.....ONE FIVE haha that youngin'

not alot has been going on lately :/ thats about it....hmmmm yeah haha


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[13 Jun 2004|03:18pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

((I thought that things were different this time around.
I thought I found someone who meant what they said.
Beyond four letters, beyond four letters.
I guess I thought that things were different,
This time around))

-so friday i went to school, took my math final, then got steph, and we left around 9:30 to go on my boat. we were on the boat until like 3. Mark and his guys showed up and we rode the jet skiis for a lil while. then we got home, and went to the mall.

-saturday i talked to Caroline, and we decided to hang out. she picked me up and we cruised around and went to the mall and shit. shes a good kid, i like her, shes easy to talk to and she understands me, hey atleast thats one person...then she dropped me off at home and i went out to eat with my brother, Ali, and her friends for their last night here in MA
:( shes moving to Cali. then we went back to their fucking HUGE house in sboro and i hung out with JJ(her brother) before they moved, it was really sad..didnt get home until midnight-ish.

-today(sunday) woke up, then went to Wrentham Outlets with my mom and kim. it was fun. and yeah now im home being lazy, i should prob study for my spanish final but nawwww.

<3 xoxo im out

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[11 Jun 2004|09:23pm]
schools almost over.
my life sucks.
its sucked for a long while now.
i suck.
im a fuck up.
i dontknow what the fuck i want anymore.
just yeah...


( and black my eyes)

[09 Jun 2004|06:42pm]
(this is a good song)

Rookie of the Year

The promise that he made
Left broken on the floor
The bruise left round your heart
Left you begging for more

Thank you for making me
Worthless in your eyes
In hope and desperation
I'll find my only light
In your white wedding dress

Thank you for making this
The best day of my life.
In hope and desperation
I'll find my only light.

And in everything I've seen
I am open to everything
And time will, will take us all and
Drown us in it's wake
And clearly I will stay and wipe the blood from
Your white wedding dress.

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[05 Jun 2004|11:25am]
[ mood | confused/annoyed/angry ]

me and emily..shes on the right, im on the left.

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[31 May 2004|07:52pm]
i should have some new pics of me uploaded on this thing soon, but im not sure. you just gotta wait and see :)

oh and um...

my life sucks. i love my friends who are helping me and everything, Emily, Hillary, Eric, Kim, Ryan, Nick, and everyone else...thank you all so much. it means a lot.

( (8) cut my wrists and black my eyes)

[27 May 2004|08:22pm]
[ mood | upset/worried ]


today sucked..alot.

first-had a quiz in history, did horrible on it.
second-had a project due in bio, didnt do it
third-sat with NO ONE at lunch :(
fourth-people are gay/annoying/jealous/selfish etc.
fifth-didnt hear from the one person who can usually always make me happy :(

basically the only good thing about my day was..going to drivers ed with kimmy and passing our tests. we got 95's and we have one more class. glad to get that stuff over with.

my life is starting to...suck

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